Happiness is not a matter of events, it depends upon the tides of the mind.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Seriously, why can't I be punctual for something for once. Today I was late for ice camp briefing. Woke up at the time, when they start the briefing. Totally forget to change my alarm, it's still the 6.55am one which was for my ITP. Oh well, still manage to wake up right on the dot, 12nn. Totally uncool. haha.
Nothing much to elaborate on the helpers training. It's the usual ice breaking game and the camp songs. &during one of the ice breaking game, someone gave me a new name, Ginger. But it was an accident, probably she misheard Angel to Ginger. Hahaha. Oh, and it took us friggin' long to come out with our helpers' team name. Bitches and Bastards, there you go. BBs, ftww! \m/
&&I should try to make myself happy. I don't know what have gotten into me recently. Sad is really bad for health. You saw the news? People die because they are heartbroken. &research say depress woman are more likely to have breast cancer. Cuz it's like you're damaging your chest area when you're sad(i don't know how to really explain, but I guess you figure out that when you're sad, you would realise the most painful area, is your chest area). Ya, my chest area is especially pain when I'm sad. Maybe that explains why I wake up breathless most of the time, or being breathless at times. Seriously, that 2 news is freaking me out. Neither do I want to die of a heart attack due to me being heartbroken nor do I want to die slowly, breast cancer.
Angel gotta be cheerful. Like happy-go-lucky. Should totally stop teding out (it means overthinking, which is usually the major reason to why I get sad/depress so easily). A phrase which I learnt from HIMYM.
When angry, count to four. When very angry, swear.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today totally suck. Thought I was bring myself to watch the final race @cityhall, I mean those you watched from afar kind or through those small holes from the barriers. Though sound pathetic, still you can hear the roaring of engine coming out from those cars. &feel the atmosphere, like the people surrounding you getting high and stuff. However ended, me watching the whole race in front of my tv. The whole day was screwed up by my dad, picking on every single little about me, kept scolding me. FUCK. I hate this kind of life okay. Totally shut myself into a room. Slamming everything to the floor, it's been long since I was that angry and upset. Luckily I didn't injured my fist from hitting the wall. I pretty much wanted to do that, but controlled myself. FML.
So Lewis Hamilton won. Totally miss those atmosphere happening at cityhall. Must wait till 1 year later. FML FML!
Past 2 days, I was at cityhall. Day 1 of F1 Singapore, I hang out with AFFF, who was late for like hmm, 1 hr. So he paid for my dinner. Thank you. &cuz my friend is working at pastamania, so we got upsized drink and soup for free, and obviously discount for our pasta. But the new cheesy one was rather dry. There was times I could totally taste the nacho cheese. Went to watch F1 at all kinds of place. Then somehow, oh, both of us wore red. Quite coincident.
Day 2 of F1 Singapore. Had dinner @Watami with Julien, Leon &YP. Food was alright, guess they don't have much choices for me. Walked around The Central. Slacked outside The Central, seeing ppl getting stucked in the huge balls, and got either threw up or swing up and down. Seriously, I'll get heart attack if I ever took that. I mean what you expect from a girl who took family rides only when enters theme park. My heart is too weak and puny for those thrilling rides.
Anyway, am feeling hungry. Wish I could whip myself a fancy supper. But it's fattening &I'm lazy, plus there's not much in the fridge, cept if I want to eat radish or fruits. Shall perservere and wait till morning. How great if there's someone who is so willing to grab/cook some food for me, when I complain hungry. However, not everyone who does that will make my heart melt. Okay, I sound like I'm some ALMIGHTY. Okay. Seriously should stop. I shall go watch my How I Met Your Mother.
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
Dear underagethinkingg,
I had an afternoon-mare. It left me sad and angry. I only remember I kept crying in my dream. It was horrible. I feel breathless now &I think I need to eat my panadol.
Think I'm heading to one of the starbuck to chill.
Your birthday is a special time to celebrate the gift of 'you' to the world.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Julien turned legal 18 today. The small group of us (as seen in the above pic) had planned a home surprise for her. I guess it went well. hahaha. I was being hidden &anston was being covered by plastic bag. Julien didn't even see him standing behind the door, she thought it was some floating plastic bag. hahaha! After the singing and eating, we were entertained by Kennneth funny convo, the main topic was Serene crying cuz she thought Kenneth didn't message her his new no., earlier on when Anston, her &I went to buy the cake. Okay, damn freaking funny! hahahaa!
Later we walked over to henderson wave. Was being stopped by police, asking us where we are going and taking down our particulars. It's great to be 18 you know :) Don't need to worry about bumping along the way during the wee hours. They were saying, if it was Ahmad, then they will kick the car. hahahaha. So we slacked and camwhore and slept at henderson wave. While Ah Toon and Chris never stop putting down their stupid PSP for even 1 sec. Being woke up at like 5am, then we walked to bukit merah mac to eat. Had hotcakes. Then we went back to Julien's home.
Checked our result at her home. Woohoo! Got an A for my ITP! I'm damn fucking happyyyyyyy! Cuz now my gpa is above 3! SO I MUST WORK HARD! I want to get a degree, cuz this society is about getting a degree or holding many many certificate. Hope I will really work hard, ¬ feel lazy when school start! Seems like my *angel's innocent face* work huh?
Oh &Ah Toon kept farting, but it got worse when we reach Julien's home in the morning, like every few minute you can hear a fart sound. He even attempt to divert our attention. It was freaking hilarious, I couldn't stop laughing. hahaha!
*looks at Serene and Ah Toon* bahahaha, we share this secret. hahaha!
Please grant my small little wish *inserts angel's innocent face*
Dear underagethinkingg,
My year 2 sem 1 results will be out few hours later, to be exact, The actual release date is tomorrow. haha. Anyway, I'm especially anxious to get my result this time round. Because I am fucking looking forward to see an A in my result slips (hopefully). I think I will be abit disappointed or a little surprise if I see a B. Sigh. I really want to pull up my GPA, you know. By getting an A, will increase my accumulative GPA, which will give me motivation to study next semester! I just called my dad, to help me ask about my results. haha. I won't have appetite to eat, if I don't know my result! But actually, I just ate a packet of nasi lemak, I feel that if I don't, I may risk myself of fainting. hahaha! Joke.
Besides that I'm eager to see E's result. I am assigned to tell him his results, hopefully I will bring good news to him! :)
So lao tian please bao you wo he ta dou na A. Xie xie. I should have went to the temple to pray eh?
Friends are like pillars on your porch. Sometimes they hold you up and sometimes they lean on you.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today was an impromptu day out with Julien! From just accompanying me to do nails, cuz I felt that my toenails looked horrendous. Gawd. To a whole day out. It's been a few weeks since we went out by ourselves together. Yup, so yesterday was the day. Met Julien @ this nails shop near abc market. Unfortunately, the next available slot is like 7pm. So we decided to head to far east plaza to do my nails. So I did express medi and pedi at the price of 20bucks. Once in awhile, spend this kind of money to "repair my nails", it's alright I guess. Fyi, usually, I don't do nails, cuz I'd rather save and buy something useful, like clothes. haha!
We stayed at there for quite long, due to the wait, &then my turn. Yay! I love my colourful fingernails, yeelloowww&orangeeee! &my black toenails. After doing nails, we went to marina square for hotpot culture since I was craving for steamboat sort of food. Still craving for it, even till now. haha! I should control my diet! I want a slimmer tummy and arms and face. Yups.
Walked topshop &river island. Bought a top from topshop, still thinking of whether to buy that shoes from river island, sigh, hopefully, I find a better &nicer shoes before school start, &of cuz the price must be affordable. Suddenly, feel so lack of money. Cuz no more incoming cash, all is outgoing. Part time job, not sure able to commit totally, as it's confirmed I'll be a helper @ ice camp (HAH! ANSTON! You have companions now ^^). &when school start, I'm not sure if I really want to work. I'd rather spend the time with friends and study over the weekends. Moreover, AFFF only gets to come out during the weekends. BUT no part time, means I've got to eat at home (I don't mind), can't even got shopping. Sigh sigh sighhhh! Ahh, if only they sell clothes as cheap as in bangkok. How great!
Had a chit chat @starbuck with Julien. But we didn't order drinks. Think I will restrict myself to drinking starbuck once a week instead. But I DAMN LOVE/ADDICTED TO STARBUCK DRINKS YOU KNOW!!!!!!
Haha. Sorry, I'm such a vainpot, but I really love my nails now! Bahaha!
A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Tonight was awesome with my lovelies! From thinking of drinking only, and to chit chat at ecp. To actually an impromptu picnic, as Liern brought her picnic mat, so I brought some junkies from home, to share the fats with them. haha! Had dinner at bedok hawker centre before heading to ecp. Woah, ECP is overcrowded with ppl.
We found a spot by the rock, sat awhile, chit chat. &realised the place is infested with not one but a few cockroaches. &our dear Liern is super scared of them. So we changed our spot.
Sat by the beach. (lol. Issit even counted as a beach uh? Whatever). haha. Talked anything under the stars, munching on junk food, and gobbling down drinks. When the hige tide is kicking in, we decided to slack at macdonald instead. I had a small cup of fluffy! haha. It was a simple yet nice outing. Didn't have to spend much :)
How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today is Rapig 20th bday! Somehow I almost typed it as 19th Bday. Cuz he don't look like a 20, seriously. I had to think a few sec, before I realise he is 20 yr old now. Unbelievable. So HAPPY BIRDDAY! You're lucky to not get any carrot this year, as I was sick. Nevermind, there's always next year! hah.
So the whole thing was held timbre @mt sophia. The atmosphere was good. Pizza was really nice. Oh, &I tried a bit of Bailey Irish Cream, it was nice! Think I'm going to order that in future! Stay till late, like 11plus. Then some went home, some went to eat tau huey, some went geylang serai. Oh, on our way to Plaza Sing, saw this baby, who is so god damn cute! He sneezed! OMG FUCKING CUTEEEEEE! So tiny &round! I feel like squishing him! Bahahaha!
&finally I had a cup of starbuck white choc mocha with whip cream, drank it in the bus on my way home. But the drink didn't taste as nice as the one I drank it @vivo.
And in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today marks the last day of my attachment @ NOL for about 6 months plus. Because of this itp @ this company, it created quite a number of special memories for me. Where should I start. Hmm.
Alright, let's talk about my department first. Fleet personnel department. It's a small dept with 6 ppl in it (excluding me). My 6 colleagues, have been very nice to me. If they have stuffs to teach me, they would ask me to their desk and teach me. I still rmb when I first came in, one of my colleague took her time out to talk to me what's their dpt doing, some general matters regarding my jobscope. My supervisor at times will tell me about the purpose of doing each assignment. When I first started, I sat at my manager's desk for a week, as he guided me the crew change processes. I must confess, I was really scared when I first came to the office. As I'm afraid of dealing with adults, cuz "different thinking". However it seemed that I was wrong, it appears that my colleagues are freaking lame. I dare say as lame as me. LOL! Thanks for the swatch watch, I really love it. &will wear it as often as possible, so that while I'm studying, it'll remind me to work hard :) &thanks for the nicely made card, which is damn nice! Once again, thanks for the guidance you all had given me. :)(gee, I sounded like I have graduated from sch??) haha.
Next, I want to thank my 2 very very important friends, actually I regard them as my sisters. Cuz this 6 months, we never fail to make each other laugh, made Joan roll her eyes, complain to each other how boring ITP is, &how much we miss sch. &of cuz I won't forget the lunch hours, how we looked forward to 12pm &6pm everyday. LOL! I will definitely miss the hang outs after work, though we still can do that. However it will be called hang outs after school! I loveeee you twooo! MWAHHHHHH! :D
Thirdly, I don't know how to phrase it. But this company, somehow let me to get to know this group of dns peeps better. hah. The ones who're bonded with APL. However, Alex ones said to me "I think ultimately your biggest catch is E". I don't know what to reply. But the answer is quite obvious eh. I'm so going to miss those times, when they come to the office to do documentation etc. &will definitely miss the times, when I had dinner with E after work. Those are the days, when I can actually wake up on time for work. haha. My ITP has ended, and all got vsls for them to sail :)
Overall, this ITP has changed me. I've got motivation to study, hope it's not a shortlived motivation. haha. Cuz I realised, in this society, holding many many certs is good. Also, I paiseh to say, but I think this ITP has made me got abit of "nu ren wei" ah. haha
Last day of ITP, leaving the company, &thinking you either won't come back or maybe come back years later when you're employed as a full-timer, it kinds of made me choke with tears. I hope I will be working there in future, after my studies, I really want to see this group of ppl slowly being promoted from cadets to officers to captains :) I want to work with them, &give them good vsls :) I shall work hard for my future! :)
After work, I went to celebrate with Liern, along with Brandon, Jeremias and Leon. Went acia in the end, cuz we were too lazy to queue for aston. hah. Dinner was really funny, like till stomach cramp. &I didn't know Brandon can be that funny at times. haha. Leon too, so funny! haha!
If the world seems cold to you, kindle fires to warm it.
Dear underagethinkingg,
How should I start? Such an unexpected day today. E is onboard vsl now! His wish finally came true. After 1am, the vsl will start to sail out, &he won't be back to s'pore, till 6 months later. In the past, the vsl will call to s'pore. However, today will be the last time they're calling back to s'pore, as they have changed run. Vsl is going to USA. Maybe he can spend New Year at USA, just as what he wanted.
Anyway, I have yet to explain the unexpected part. Afternoon, before I went for lunch, went to check my e-mail. God, saw this e-mail which was sent out to the vsl saying 1 more additional cadet joining today, at 2pm, looked down and saw E's name. Like so sudden, yes, they only informed him this morning. Since he soooo wanted to go sailing, guess he must be really happy. Called him immediately to ask abt the whole thing. Kind of happy we didn't talked for a few sec/few mins only. Okay, but need to hang up cuz Kenneth &Ratna was nearing me.
I'm really glad that I'm attached to this dept, at least I get to see him for one last time, before he sails. Luckily, I did put down my esteem a little, and asked him if he wanted to follow me to ikea 2 days ago, since he was at office. Eventually, went to vivo to eat, tgt with A&H. &slowly we started to chat. Haven't been talking to him for more than a week I think.
Abit sad to see him walk out of the office for vsl. Duh, any of my friends who won't be around me for months, I'll be equally sad as well. But the thing is this few months, had dinner together, went arcade together to play, Y2K &basketball! He walked with me to see plane. Invited me to his house, to eat his mummy's thai green laksa. Seriously, hard to not miss those moments.
After work, I went to ikea to buy my stuffs. I was kind of lost at ikea, cuz I was alone there. By right, if he haven't sailed yet. We were supposed to go ikea tomorrow. But, I'm independent! :) I managed to use all my strength to lug 7 heavy glasses from ikea to batok. My hands and shoulders almost went numbed. Damn heavy, not kidding okay. Back to batok, I didn't even have the energy to play piano. hah.
&while I was doing nothing at home, earlier on, not putting high hopes on any stuffs. E sms-ed me! I swear I was smiling, like I win a prize from lucky draw. Get to talk to him on the phone. Few hours o/b vsl, &he got lots to say. Can't believe my dad kept interrupting our convo. My dad even told him bon voyage. haha! I hope he rmbs to ring me up/ or even at least send/reply my e-mails. I can't wait to ask him about his sailing trip &how is USA like :)
Love is painful that is true not to love is painful too; but there is a greater pain: to love and not be loved again
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today I had a farewell lunch from my department. An advance one :) We had it @vivo Crystal Jade. hah. Cuz since I suggested Dim Sum. I ate till I was really bloated. Really thankful to be attached to such a nice department. Honestly, I find that my dpt ppl are lame as well, but lame in a funny way.There's some occassion when they made me laugh during my itp. hah. Oh ya, the bill amounted to 200plus. Woah.Long lunch as well. Can't believe 3 more days, &I'm done with ITP. &it seems like bnj doesn't want me :( Maybe pastamania then.
At night I had my first movie date with Liern!:) We caught "The Time Traveller's Wife" Nice movie. I think I almost teared, but nope the tear didn't fall off from my eyes. I wanna catch more romance movies! ¬ forgetting 4bia 2! Shop for gifts after that.
&I don't know why, whenever this particular name appears, it just made me sooooooooo (I don't know how to describe). Blah. Time to sleep. G'night.
Don't know if I'm still happy as last time. I don't know, just that I'm consistently trying to think positively to make myself happy. How pathetic. To make it more obvious, it's like constantly day dreaming of happy things which will never happen in my life, so I'm happy in my dream. But when I'm pulled back to the earth, the feeling is different.
You know the above shows what? Time to drink and loosen up. Anyway, I'm legal enough to buy alcohol by myself :)
Anyway, my twitter says it all.
Shall leave you all with this very nice melody, which I took donkey years to find it.
A conclusion is simply the place where you got tired of thinking.
Dear underagethinkingg,
This week is coming to an end soon. And a brand new week. To be exact, my last week in NOL. Got a mixed feeling about my ITP is coming to an end soon. Like finally, 6 months! That's how long I/we have waited for the magical day, 18sept to come. However, cuz we were attached for 6 months, and it makes me a wee bit unbearable to leave the place. Just that, at my age, I still don't quite like working at office 9-6 yet. Anyway, I think I got an idea of what to make for my department :)
Haven't been posting for 3 days, so a quick update. On friday, after work was hanging out with Sivien. We went to walk the comex IT fair. Sivien got her red colour I-touch casing. She's damn happy please. However, if not for our "aunty-ness" bet she won't be able to get the red casing. Cuz there was only one left, and this cheena girl also want it. But who cares, she didn't "book" that thing first. Anyway, we walked abit. &decided to go down to starbuck to chill. We bought our drinks and foods. Sat down to eat, drink &chit chat for like one hour plus :) My drinking khaki. haha:)
Saturday, I went to IT fair with my dad. Bought a canon camera. Hope the quality of the picture is good. Cuz haven't try it out yet. Slack at starbuck. haha. Went to paya lebar with AFFF, to meet the rest. We walked the beeeeeeeeeeeeeg pasar malam @there. Filled with people, very hot indeed. &the cookies/goodies looked very appealing, but quite expensive. Hawker centres were overcrowded. Thus we decided to have our dinner at changi airport popeye instead. Took mrt to airport. At first wanted to have popeye at T3, in the end, we decided to have it at T1, so that we could send Fathin off. Anyway, everything was very impromptu. While walking to popeye @T3, we saw Akila, who told us Fathin was going to Amsterdam for a few months. Since we were at airport, so we went to bid farewell to her. Before, we went to meet her, we had popeyes take away, and eat it at viewing mall. I love the moment eating popeye @ viewing mall, having some funny convo &watching planes, can't really see the planes landing/taking off though.
Sunday, today, I had a bad dream, which lead to a headache when I woke up. Now I can't stand the pain when I'm having headache, so prone to eating panadol, once I feel the pain. Met AFFF late afternoon @marina square, went to shop for his stuffs, went into topshop/zara many many times. Bahahaha! He ah, so undecisive! Tsktsktsk. At night, met Julien, Yanping &Rapig for dinner @vivo. Walk walk, I left earlier. Bought a grande size White choco mocha with whip cream. Drank it in the bus, while listening to my Yoyo, on my way home. Good way to relax. :)
Okay, time to go watch abit of my "A lot like love". &then sleep! Toodle :)
My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot.
Dear underagethinkingg,
I'm drinking hot vanilla. Okay, not that hot now.(being random here. hah) Was contented with today. Had lunch with my beloved Joan &Liern @bukit merah. 6mths at ITP. We seriously came to a wit end of what to eat, got tired of AV, harbourfront &anchorpoint. Bukit merah hawker centre is really good, filled with delicious &cheap food. I had char kway teow. We shared bbq-ed rojak. Damn love rojak! While eating rojak, my rubber band which I'm wearing on my teeth, snapped, one at a time. haha. &a cup of apple juice :) Vitamin C! Apple gives vitamin A or C ah?
Anyway, now I'm re-arranging documents at work. Kind of alot, but good, time pass really fast. Had free chocolate cake from breadtalk. I don't if I can count it as teatime, cuz it was 5pm when I ate that. Maybe I can say it's my appetizer. hah. Somehow was damn full after eating it. And made my fingers so chocolatey, cuz the side are made of hard chocolate, so I must break it in order to eat it. I feel so embarassed for being a messy eater.
Woohoo, it's friday tomorrow. And then 1 more week left, before I can say I officially ended my year 2, semester 1. Which means ITP is over for meeeee! Anyway, talking about that, why isn't B&J replying my mail already. Gosh, I wish I can get the job! Really really desperate for a part time job. Another alternative will be working at pastamania with Younini. Hah. Can eat my fave chicken sausage for free everyday, think I can eat till I feel sick. hah.
Alright, I want to go enjoy watching my romance movie "definitely, maybe". Anyway, should have ordered some coffee drink instead, feel abit sleepy now.
And I tell myself to just wait, because Cinderella didn't find her prince. Until the end.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Hope I'm not too late to realise that "The Holiday" is actually a nice movie. Made me weeps abit. Well, if I'm in the movie, I think I play the role "Iris", who's stuck in the unrequited love. Important part is eventually she managed to get out of that "crisis".
un⋅re⋅quit⋅ed- not returned or reciprocated: unrequited love.
Hah. But I rather play the role of Amanda, cuz she gets to fall in love with Graham, who is played by Jude Law. At the same time, Graham loves Amanda too. I need to digress, JUDE LAW IS FUCKING HOTTTT! Omg, I think Ryan Reynold will hold the runner-up place in my "Top 10 ang moh, Angel is going gaga". But then I only found 2, Jude Law and Ryan Reynold, for the moment. I just check the net, so going to catch "Sherlock Holmes" which is coming up in cinema soon. JUDE LAW IS IN IT!
However, movie is a movie. Seems like movies are just like fairytale stories. Okay most of the movies. Cuz they got happy ending. Which makes you bawl and goes "awwww".
I wonder how is it like to be in love. I bet I haven't taste that sort of happiness before. I need to confess, I have never been in a serious relationship before. I look forward to one in future :) Hope so :)
Oh, &btw, I never think myself as a CINDERELLA okay. (just for your info). It's just that, that quote which I happened to find on the net, suits what I am trying to say.
Guess I have found one guy to swooooon. RYAN REYNOLD! He's damn handsome can. The moment I watched "The Proposal" I had a love at first sight with on him. Aww, how I wish I was Scarlette Johasson, who is happily married with Ryan Reynold.
See see, how can you resist of not idolising him!
The Proposal was great! Awesome romantic comedy movie. Just as what Joan had commented. It was freaking funny, almost laughing throughout the whole movie. Watched with Julien. Our 2nd movie together, by ourselves. Oh, and today was our so-called "blue dates". Wore blue, kind of match the day, Monday blues. However, sadly, forget to snap some pictures. It's okay there's lots more of monday.
Yay! Finally had lunch with Liern and Joan. Last week, was the first time throughout my ITP of not having lunch with Joan for a week. hah. Oh, &I think I will be getting a part time job soon. Ben n jerry! The hr replied my e-mail. Hopefully I'm hired. Can work to kill time, at the same time earn some buckeroos.
And you know what, I think I should start giving my stuffs name. They say you'll get attached to things, if you name them. Hmm. haha. That's what I heard from Monster Inc. I think tomorrow after work, I feel like pampering myself with a cup of hot drink from some cafe in vivo. Sit, relax and read my novel. Guess I shall do that tomorrow. Shall go sleep now :) Last but not least, how come recently, it seems hard to find nice wallpaper of singer/actor/actress. I find lots of icons, but not wallpaper. Ggrrr. &I should start reading fml.com again. It's been 2 days, since I last read it.
Love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Looks like I haven't been updating regularly. Yeah. Was very tired recently. Could just fall asleep by just lying on bed. Maybe it's due to the cold weather, which is making the bed extra comfortable(?). Nice weather, but I think the thunder is totally redundant. Today early in the morning, while my mum was rushing to the kitchen to keep the clothes, she accidentally cuz the fish tank to fall, and the glass shattered into gazillions tiny pieces. Gosh, luckily, there wasn't any fishy inside. If not, imagine they dying of a terrible death.
In the noon, I went out with AFFF to vivo, get some stuffs. At the same time, surprise Julien at work once again. I think I'm not considering to work at toys r us. I do not want to have to work full day on either a saturday or sunday. And mop the whole huge damn shop. The crowd on weekends kind of scares me too. 9am to 11pm plus, is no joke man. Just asked my friend to help me check out for pastamania. Hopefully they need part timer! Anyway, spent money again, bought a dress from f21. Just can't resist the temptation of not buying it. Currently, still feel like buying a pair of shoes from River Island, and a black pump from topshop. I'm afraid I will turn into a shopoholic. Sighhhhhh. I spent to make myself feel happy.
Yesterday, went for my tightening. Blue colour this time round. Had lunch at shokudo @heeren. Food was delish and filling. Love the grill chicken omu rice. The egg is quite fluffy :) In the noon, went to marina barrage. Didn't fly kite, more to camwhoring and chatting and sheltering ourselves from the sweltering hot sun. Left at 5pm for amk to meet KJ for prawning. My first time prawning. At times makes me sleepy, as I looked down at the ripple forming on the water. I think I caught 2 prawns. Altogether we caught 18 prawns. Bbq-ed eat and ate it. Luckily we have KJ who is experienced and pro in prawning, &of cuz entertaining us. hahaha! The rest came later.
Friday went to vivo with Chris and Ah Toon to surprise Julien at work. Quite a simple outing. Surprise, had dinner, lepakz at rooftop garden. And thursday eating dinner with Serene and Ah Toon at Kampong Glam Cafe, this time round, didn't finish my fave roti john cheese. Oh bought my hurs bag and shades. I so so so love my hurs bag, shall give her a name, since she will be going thru' thick and thin with me. Hmmm, Chloe seems suitable. hah. Chloe it shall be!
Tiring day at work. Seriously can't wait for attachment to end. Totally feel damn moodless to go to work, zero motivation. Can you imagine how tough is that? And I still need to bear for like 2 weeks plus. Why I feel moodless? Of cuz there's a reason behind it. I mean there's some problems in my tiny life. Like I'm stuck in between in a situation. If only I am able to pour out to my toiletbowl, and after pouring out, flush the toiletbowl, &all my troubles are *poof* gone. I seriously won't mind talking to a toilet bowl. hah. But kinda weird.
So anyway, I expected some stuffs which will happen today. Obviously got some tears in my eyes. But I'm cool after that. Feel abit fuck up at some point of time. I think karma, for closing the lift door without waiting for my neighbour. But I was rushing for time, and he still took his own sweet time walking to the lift, I did hint him. If I wasn't rushing I would wait. Anyway, I've learnt this phrase called the "a tit for tat".
Had dinner with Ah Toon Tan. He made me wait for like 45 mins! But as a friend, I understand, it takes a bit longer for him to walk than those normal human. Had dinner at clementi. I think it was a wrong choice to order that curry rice. Didn't taste as nice as I thought it would be. Should have ordered Pontian Wanton Mee!
You know I don't know why some ppl ain't contented with their lives, when they have all the essential "items" in their lives already. I don't see which part of you will get you upset or have trouble in. No, not saying that, I have all rights to be not contented. Cuz I know there are more people out there, having worser situation than me. I have been trying very hard to overcome this so called "recession" period of mine. Just that all these takes time.
Oh, do you like promise breakers? Cuz I totally dislike them. One must be nuts to be okay with them.
I couldn't wait for success, so I went ahead without it.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Recently the weather was rather cooling and comfy. If only, I could sleep longer. But work always force me to wake up at 7am plus. Sigh. Less than 3 more weeks, and I'm finally done! But by then, hopefully, I get my toys r us part time job. I don't want to be a couch potato, rot at home doing nothing during the 1 month vacation. I used to agree with one of my friend saying "Why work so hard now, when you grow up you can slog like hell". Somehow now I disagree in what he had said. I think I would rather slog hard now, &maybe when I grow up, I will face lesser financial issue? Of cuz this will only work, if I save &spent wisely on my salary.
Anyway today was a bit of a terrible day for me, had to withstand headache since the moment I woke up. &the best part was I forget to bring panadol on my way out. Luckily, Liern had a box of panadol in her drawer. If not, I guess my brain will just explode like a bomb.
Went home after that, due to not feeling well. Then after dinner, I went to shop for groceries with my papa @ shop n save. Now I won't be scared that I will be freaking hungry like a pig. Instead, I'm worry that I'll be as fat as a pig!
Anyway, should sleep now. Night world!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Time: 2:10 AM
Bad post.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Why is it that at times I feel that some friends are taking me for granted? I fucking hate it.
If ever I had a chance to reincarnate. I don't want to be "Angel" anymore. I want to be someone better than Angel.
I don't like being Angel. This character really sucks.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Time: 9:35 PM
Happiness is not a matter of events, it depends upon the tides of the mind.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Seriously, why can't I be punctual for something for once. Today I was late for ice camp briefing. Woke up at the time, when they start the briefing. Totally forget to change my alarm, it's still the 6.55am one which was for my ITP. Oh well, still manage to wake up right on the dot, 12nn. Totally uncool. haha.
Nothing much to elaborate on the helpers training. It's the usual ice breaking game and the camp songs. &during one of the ice breaking game, someone gave me a new name, Ginger. But it was an accident, probably she misheard Angel to Ginger. Hahaha. Oh, and it took us friggin' long to come out with our helpers' team name. Bitches and Bastards, there you go. BBs, ftww! \m/
&&I should try to make myself happy. I don't know what have gotten into me recently. Sad is really bad for health. You saw the news? People die because they are heartbroken. &research say depress woman are more likely to have breast cancer. Cuz it's like you're damaging your chest area when you're sad(i don't know how to really explain, but I guess you figure out that when you're sad, you would realise the most painful area, is your chest area). Ya, my chest area is especially pain when I'm sad. Maybe that explains why I wake up breathless most of the time, or being breathless at times. Seriously, that 2 news is freaking me out. Neither do I want to die of a heart attack due to me being heartbroken nor do I want to die slowly, breast cancer.
Angel gotta be cheerful. Like happy-go-lucky. Should totally stop teding out (it means overthinking, which is usually the major reason to why I get sad/depress so easily). A phrase which I learnt from HIMYM.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Time: 11:45 PM
When angry, count to four. When very angry, swear.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today totally suck. Thought I was bring myself to watch the final race @cityhall, I mean those you watched from afar kind or through those small holes from the barriers. Though sound pathetic, still you can hear the roaring of engine coming out from those cars. &feel the atmosphere, like the people surrounding you getting high and stuff. However ended, me watching the whole race in front of my tv. The whole day was screwed up by my dad, picking on every single little about me, kept scolding me. FUCK. I hate this kind of life okay. Totally shut myself into a room. Slamming everything to the floor, it's been long since I was that angry and upset. Luckily I didn't injured my fist from hitting the wall. I pretty much wanted to do that, but controlled myself. FML.
So Lewis Hamilton won. Totally miss those atmosphere happening at cityhall. Must wait till 1 year later. FML FML!
Past 2 days, I was at cityhall. Day 1 of F1 Singapore, I hang out with AFFF, who was late for like hmm, 1 hr. So he paid for my dinner. Thank you. &cuz my friend is working at pastamania, so we got upsized drink and soup for free, and obviously discount for our pasta. But the new cheesy one was rather dry. There was times I could totally taste the nacho cheese. Went to watch F1 at all kinds of place. Then somehow, oh, both of us wore red. Quite coincident.
Day 2 of F1 Singapore. Had dinner @Watami with Julien, Leon &YP. Food was alright, guess they don't have much choices for me. Walked around The Central. Slacked outside The Central, seeing ppl getting stucked in the huge balls, and got either threw up or swing up and down. Seriously, I'll get heart attack if I ever took that. I mean what you expect from a girl who took family rides only when enters theme park. My heart is too weak and puny for those thrilling rides.
Anyway, am feeling hungry. Wish I could whip myself a fancy supper. But it's fattening &I'm lazy, plus there's not much in the fridge, cept if I want to eat radish or fruits. Shall perservere and wait till morning. How great if there's someone who is so willing to grab/cook some food for me, when I complain hungry. However, not everyone who does that will make my heart melt. Okay, I sound like I'm some ALMIGHTY. Okay. Seriously should stop. I shall go watch my How I Met Your Mother.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Time: 4:16 PM
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
Dear underagethinkingg,
I had an afternoon-mare. It left me sad and angry. I only remember I kept crying in my dream. It was horrible. I feel breathless now &I think I need to eat my panadol.
Think I'm heading to one of the starbuck to chill.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Time: 11:28 PM
Your birthday is a special time to celebrate the gift of 'you' to the world.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Julien turned legal 18 today. The small group of us (as seen in the above pic) had planned a home surprise for her. I guess it went well. hahaha. I was being hidden &anston was being covered by plastic bag. Julien didn't even see him standing behind the door, she thought it was some floating plastic bag. hahaha! After the singing and eating, we were entertained by Kennneth funny convo, the main topic was Serene crying cuz she thought Kenneth didn't message her his new no., earlier on when Anston, her &I went to buy the cake. Okay, damn freaking funny! hahahaa!
Later we walked over to henderson wave. Was being stopped by police, asking us where we are going and taking down our particulars. It's great to be 18 you know :) Don't need to worry about bumping along the way during the wee hours. They were saying, if it was Ahmad, then they will kick the car. hahahaha. So we slacked and camwhore and slept at henderson wave. While Ah Toon and Chris never stop putting down their stupid PSP for even 1 sec. Being woke up at like 5am, then we walked to bukit merah mac to eat. Had hotcakes. Then we went back to Julien's home.
Checked our result at her home. Woohoo! Got an A for my ITP! I'm damn fucking happyyyyyyy! Cuz now my gpa is above 3! SO I MUST WORK HARD! I want to get a degree, cuz this society is about getting a degree or holding many many certificate. Hope I will really work hard, ¬ feel lazy when school start! Seems like my *angel's innocent face* work huh?
Oh &Ah Toon kept farting, but it got worse when we reach Julien's home in the morning, like every few minute you can hear a fart sound. He even attempt to divert our attention. It was freaking hilarious, I couldn't stop laughing. hahaha!
*looks at Serene and Ah Toon* bahahaha, we share this secret. hahaha!
PANIC ATTACK!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Time: 3:29 PM
Please grant my small little wish *inserts angel's innocent face*
Dear underagethinkingg,
My year 2 sem 1 results will be out few hours later, to be exact, The actual release date is tomorrow. haha. Anyway, I'm especially anxious to get my result this time round. Because I am fucking looking forward to see an A in my result slips (hopefully). I think I will be abit disappointed or a little surprise if I see a B. Sigh. I really want to pull up my GPA, you know. By getting an A, will increase my accumulative GPA, which will give me motivation to study next semester! I just called my dad, to help me ask about my results. haha. I won't have appetite to eat, if I don't know my result! But actually, I just ate a packet of nasi lemak, I feel that if I don't, I may risk myself of fainting. hahaha! Joke.
Besides that I'm eager to see E's result. I am assigned to tell him his results, hopefully I will bring good news to him! :)
So lao tian please bao you wo he ta dou na A. Xie xie. I should have went to the temple to pray eh?
&I'm so lazy to play the peeahnooo.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Time: 11:11 PM
Friends are like pillars on your porch. Sometimes they hold you up and sometimes they lean on you.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today was an impromptu day out with Julien! From just accompanying me to do nails, cuz I felt that my toenails looked horrendous. Gawd. To a whole day out. It's been a few weeks since we went out by ourselves together. Yup, so yesterday was the day. Met Julien @ this nails shop near abc market. Unfortunately, the next available slot is like 7pm. So we decided to head to far east plaza to do my nails. So I did express medi and pedi at the price of 20bucks. Once in awhile, spend this kind of money to "repair my nails", it's alright I guess. Fyi, usually, I don't do nails, cuz I'd rather save and buy something useful, like clothes. haha!
We stayed at there for quite long, due to the wait, &then my turn. Yay! I love my colourful fingernails, yeelloowww&orangeeee! &my black toenails. After doing nails, we went to marina square for hotpot culture since I was craving for steamboat sort of food. Still craving for it, even till now. haha! I should control my diet! I want a slimmer tummy and arms and face. Yups.
Walked topshop &river island. Bought a top from topshop, still thinking of whether to buy that shoes from river island, sigh, hopefully, I find a better &nicer shoes before school start, &of cuz the price must be affordable. Suddenly, feel so lack of money. Cuz no more incoming cash, all is outgoing. Part time job, not sure able to commit totally, as it's confirmed I'll be a helper @ ice camp (HAH! ANSTON! You have companions now ^^). &when school start, I'm not sure if I really want to work. I'd rather spend the time with friends and study over the weekends. Moreover, AFFF only gets to come out during the weekends. BUT no part time, means I've got to eat at home (I don't mind), can't even got shopping. Sigh sigh sighhhh! Ahh, if only they sell clothes as cheap as in bangkok. How great!
Had a chit chat @starbuck with Julien. But we didn't order drinks. Think I will restrict myself to drinking starbuck once a week instead. But I DAMN LOVE/ADDICTED TO STARBUCK DRINKS YOU KNOW!!!!!!
Haha. Sorry, I'm such a vainpot, but I really love my nails now! Bahaha!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Time: 11:21 PM
A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Tonight was awesome with my lovelies! From thinking of drinking only, and to chit chat at ecp. To actually an impromptu picnic, as Liern brought her picnic mat, so I brought some junkies from home, to share the fats with them. haha! Had dinner at bedok hawker centre before heading to ecp. Woah, ECP is overcrowded with ppl.
We found a spot by the rock, sat awhile, chit chat. &realised the place is infested with not one but a few cockroaches. &our dear Liern is super scared of them. So we changed our spot.
Sat by the beach. (lol. Issit even counted as a beach uh? Whatever). haha. Talked anything under the stars, munching on junk food, and gobbling down drinks. When the hige tide is kicking in, we decided to slack at macdonald instead. I had a small cup of fluffy! haha. It was a simple yet nice outing. Didn't have to spend much :)
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Time: 11:51 PM
How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today is Rapig 20th bday! Somehow I almost typed it as 19th Bday. Cuz he don't look like a 20, seriously. I had to think a few sec, before I realise he is 20 yr old now. Unbelievable. So HAPPY BIRDDAY! You're lucky to not get any carrot this year, as I was sick. Nevermind, there's always next year! hah.
So the whole thing was held timbre @mt sophia. The atmosphere was good. Pizza was really nice. Oh, &I tried a bit of Bailey Irish Cream, it was nice! Think I'm going to order that in future! Stay till late, like 11plus. Then some went home, some went to eat tau huey, some went geylang serai. Oh, on our way to Plaza Sing, saw this baby, who is so god damn cute! He sneezed! OMG FUCKING CUTEEEEEE! So tiny &round! I feel like squishing him! Bahahaha!
&finally I had a cup of starbuck white choc mocha with whip cream, drank it in the bus on my way home. But the drink didn't taste as nice as the one I drank it @vivo.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Time: 11:59 PM
And in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today marks the last day of my attachment @ NOL for about 6 months plus. Because of this itp @ this company, it created quite a number of special memories for me. Where should I start. Hmm.
Alright, let's talk about my department first. Fleet personnel department. It's a small dept with 6 ppl in it (excluding me). My 6 colleagues, have been very nice to me. If they have stuffs to teach me, they would ask me to their desk and teach me. I still rmb when I first came in, one of my colleague took her time out to talk to me what's their dpt doing, some general matters regarding my jobscope. My supervisor at times will tell me about the purpose of doing each assignment. When I first started, I sat at my manager's desk for a week, as he guided me the crew change processes. I must confess, I was really scared when I first came to the office. As I'm afraid of dealing with adults, cuz "different thinking". However it seemed that I was wrong, it appears that my colleagues are freaking lame. I dare say as lame as me. LOL! Thanks for the swatch watch, I really love it. &will wear it as often as possible, so that while I'm studying, it'll remind me to work hard :) &thanks for the nicely made card, which is damn nice! Once again, thanks for the guidance you all had given me. :)(gee, I sounded like I have graduated from sch??) haha.
Next, I want to thank my 2 very very important friends, actually I regard them as my sisters. Cuz this 6 months, we never fail to make each other laugh, made Joan roll her eyes, complain to each other how boring ITP is, &how much we miss sch. &of cuz I won't forget the lunch hours, how we looked forward to 12pm &6pm everyday. LOL! I will definitely miss the hang outs after work, though we still can do that. However it will be called hang outs after school! I loveeee you twooo! MWAHHHHHH! :D
Thirdly, I don't know how to phrase it. But this company, somehow let me to get to know this group of dns peeps better. hah. The ones who're bonded with APL. However, Alex ones said to me "I think ultimately your biggest catch is E". I don't know what to reply. But the answer is quite obvious eh. I'm so going to miss those times, when they come to the office to do documentation etc. &will definitely miss the times, when I had dinner with E after work. Those are the days, when I can actually wake up on time for work. haha. My ITP has ended, and all got vsls for them to sail :)
Overall, this ITP has changed me. I've got motivation to study, hope it's not a shortlived motivation. haha. Cuz I realised, in this society, holding many many certs is good. Also, I paiseh to say, but I think this ITP has made me got abit of "nu ren wei" ah. haha
Last day of ITP, leaving the company, &thinking you either won't come back or maybe come back years later when you're employed as a full-timer, it kinds of made me choke with tears. I hope I will be working there in future, after my studies, I really want to see this group of ppl slowly being promoted from cadets to officers to captains :) I want to work with them, &give them good vsls :) I shall work hard for my future! :)
After work, I went to celebrate with Liern, along with Brandon, Jeremias and Leon. Went acia in the end, cuz we were too lazy to queue for aston. hah. Dinner was really funny, like till stomach cramp. &I didn't know Brandon can be that funny at times. haha. Leon too, so funny! haha!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Time: 10:39 PM
If the world seems cold to you, kindle fires to warm it.
Dear underagethinkingg,
How should I start? Such an unexpected day today. E is onboard vsl now! His wish finally came true. After 1am, the vsl will start to sail out, &he won't be back to s'pore, till 6 months later. In the past, the vsl will call to s'pore. However, today will be the last time they're calling back to s'pore, as they have changed run. Vsl is going to USA. Maybe he can spend New Year at USA, just as what he wanted.
Anyway, I have yet to explain the unexpected part. Afternoon, before I went for lunch, went to check my e-mail. God, saw this e-mail which was sent out to the vsl saying 1 more additional cadet joining today, at 2pm, looked down and saw E's name. Like so sudden, yes, they only informed him this morning. Since he soooo wanted to go sailing, guess he must be really happy. Called him immediately to ask abt the whole thing. Kind of happy we didn't talked for a few sec/few mins only. Okay, but need to hang up cuz Kenneth &Ratna was nearing me.
I'm really glad that I'm attached to this dept, at least I get to see him for one last time, before he sails. Luckily, I did put down my esteem a little, and asked him if he wanted to follow me to ikea 2 days ago, since he was at office. Eventually, went to vivo to eat, tgt with A&H. &slowly we started to chat. Haven't been talking to him for more than a week I think.
Abit sad to see him walk out of the office for vsl. Duh, any of my friends who won't be around me for months, I'll be equally sad as well. But the thing is this few months, had dinner together, went arcade together to play, Y2K &basketball! He walked with me to see plane. Invited me to his house, to eat his mummy's thai green laksa. Seriously, hard to not miss those moments.
After work, I went to ikea to buy my stuffs. I was kind of lost at ikea, cuz I was alone there. By right, if he haven't sailed yet. We were supposed to go ikea tomorrow. But, I'm independent! :) I managed to use all my strength to lug 7 heavy glasses from ikea to batok. My hands and shoulders almost went numbed. Damn heavy, not kidding okay. Back to batok, I didn't even have the energy to play piano. hah.
&while I was doing nothing at home, earlier on, not putting high hopes on any stuffs. E sms-ed me! I swear I was smiling, like I win a prize from lucky draw. Get to talk to him on the phone. Few hours o/b vsl, &he got lots to say. Can't believe my dad kept interrupting our convo. My dad even told him bon voyage. haha! I hope he rmbs to ring me up/ or even at least send/reply my e-mails. I can't wait to ask him about his sailing trip &how is USA like :)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Time: 11:59 PM
Love is painful that is true not to love is painful too; but there is a greater pain: to love and not be loved again
Dear underagethinkingg,
Today I had a farewell lunch from my department. An advance one :) We had it @vivo Crystal Jade. hah. Cuz since I suggested Dim Sum. I ate till I was really bloated. Really thankful to be attached to such a nice department. Honestly, I find that my dpt ppl are lame as well, but lame in a funny way.There's some occassion when they made me laugh during my itp. hah. Oh ya, the bill amounted to 200plus. Woah.Long lunch as well. Can't believe 3 more days, &I'm done with ITP. &it seems like bnj doesn't want me :( Maybe pastamania then.
At night I had my first movie date with Liern!:) We caught "The Time Traveller's Wife" Nice movie. I think I almost teared, but nope the tear didn't fall off from my eyes. I wanna catch more romance movies! ¬ forgetting 4bia 2! Shop for gifts after that.
&I don't know why, whenever this particular name appears, it just made me sooooooooo (I don't know how to describe). Blah. Time to sleep. G'night.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Time: 10:51 PM
Teach me how to be happy, will you?
Dear underagethinkingg,
Don't know if I'm still happy as last time. I don't know, just that I'm consistently trying to think positively to make myself happy. How pathetic. To make it more obvious, it's like constantly day dreaming of happy things which will never happen in my life, so I'm happy in my dream. But when I'm pulled back to the earth, the feeling is different.
You know the above shows what? Time to drink and loosen up. Anyway, I'm legal enough to buy alcohol by myself :)
Anyway, my twitter says it all.
Shall leave you all with this very nice melody, which I took donkey years to find it.
England seems a nice place :)
Angel
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Time: 10:47 PM
A conclusion is simply the place where you got tired of thinking.
Dear underagethinkingg,
This week is coming to an end soon. And a brand new week. To be exact, my last week in NOL. Got a mixed feeling about my ITP is coming to an end soon. Like finally, 6 months! That's how long I/we have waited for the magical day, 18sept to come. However, cuz we were attached for 6 months, and it makes me a wee bit unbearable to leave the place. Just that, at my age, I still don't quite like working at office 9-6 yet. Anyway, I think I got an idea of what to make for my department :)
Haven't been posting for 3 days, so a quick update. On friday, after work was hanging out with Sivien. We went to walk the comex IT fair. Sivien got her red colour I-touch casing. She's damn happy please. However, if not for our "aunty-ness" bet she won't be able to get the red casing. Cuz there was only one left, and this cheena girl also want it. But who cares, she didn't "book" that thing first. Anyway, we walked abit. &decided to go down to starbuck to chill. We bought our drinks and foods. Sat down to eat, drink &chit chat for like one hour plus :) My drinking khaki. haha:)
Saturday, I went to IT fair with my dad. Bought a canon camera. Hope the quality of the picture is good. Cuz haven't try it out yet. Slack at starbuck. haha. Went to paya lebar with AFFF, to meet the rest. We walked the beeeeeeeeeeeeeg pasar malam @there. Filled with people, very hot indeed. &the cookies/goodies looked very appealing, but quite expensive. Hawker centres were overcrowded. Thus we decided to have our dinner at changi airport popeye instead. Took mrt to airport. At first wanted to have popeye at T3, in the end, we decided to have it at T1, so that we could send Fathin off. Anyway, everything was very impromptu. While walking to popeye @T3, we saw Akila, who told us Fathin was going to Amsterdam for a few months. Since we were at airport, so we went to bid farewell to her. Before, we went to meet her, we had popeyes take away, and eat it at viewing mall. I love the moment eating popeye @ viewing mall, having some funny convo &watching planes, can't really see the planes landing/taking off though.
Sunday, today, I had a bad dream, which lead to a headache when I woke up. Now I can't stand the pain when I'm having headache, so prone to eating panadol, once I feel the pain. Met AFFF late afternoon @marina square, went to shop for his stuffs, went into topshop/zara many many times. Bahahaha! He ah, so undecisive! Tsktsktsk. At night, met Julien, Yanping &Rapig for dinner @vivo. Walk walk, I left earlier. Bought a grande size White choco mocha with whip cream. Drank it in the bus, while listening to my Yoyo, on my way home. Good way to relax. :)
Okay, time to go watch abit of my "A lot like love". &then sleep! Toodle :)
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Time: 9:15 PM
My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot.
Dear underagethinkingg,
I'm drinking hot vanilla. Okay, not that hot now.(being random here. hah) Was contented with today. Had lunch with my beloved Joan &Liern @bukit merah. 6mths at ITP. We seriously came to a wit end of what to eat, got tired of AV, harbourfront &anchorpoint. Bukit merah hawker centre is really good, filled with delicious &cheap food. I had char kway teow. We shared bbq-ed rojak. Damn love rojak! While eating rojak, my rubber band which I'm wearing on my teeth, snapped, one at a time. haha. &a cup of apple juice :) Vitamin C! Apple gives vitamin A or C ah?
Anyway, now I'm re-arranging documents at work. Kind of alot, but good, time pass really fast. Had free chocolate cake from breadtalk. I don't if I can count it as teatime, cuz it was 5pm when I ate that. Maybe I can say it's my appetizer. hah. Somehow was damn full after eating it. And made my fingers so chocolatey, cuz the side are made of hard chocolate, so I must break it in order to eat it. I feel so embarassed for being a messy eater.
Woohoo, it's friday tomorrow. And then 1 more week left, before I can say I officially ended my year 2, semester 1. Which means ITP is over for meeeee! Anyway, talking about that, why isn't B&J replying my mail already. Gosh, I wish I can get the job! Really really desperate for a part time job. Another alternative will be working at pastamania with Younini. Hah. Can eat my fave chicken sausage for free everyday, think I can eat till I feel sick. hah.
Alright, I want to go enjoy watching my romance movie "definitely, maybe". Anyway, should have ordered some coffee drink instead, feel abit sleepy now.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Time: 11:46 PM
And I tell myself to just wait, because Cinderella didn't find her prince. Until the end.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Hope I'm not too late to realise that "The Holiday" is actually a nice movie. Made me weeps abit. Well, if I'm in the movie, I think I play the role "Iris", who's stuck in the unrequited love. Important part is eventually she managed to get out of that "crisis".
un⋅re⋅quit⋅ed- not returned or reciprocated: unrequited love.
Hah. But I rather play the role of Amanda, cuz she gets to fall in love with Graham, who is played by Jude Law. At the same time, Graham loves Amanda too. I need to digress, JUDE LAW IS FUCKING HOTTTT! Omg, I think Ryan Reynold will hold the runner-up place in my "Top 10 ang moh, Angel is going gaga". But then I only found 2, Jude Law and Ryan Reynold, for the moment. I just check the net, so going to catch "Sherlock Holmes" which is coming up in cinema soon. JUDE LAW IS IN IT!
However, movie is a movie. Seems like movies are just like fairytale stories. Okay most of the movies. Cuz they got happy ending. Which makes you bawl and goes "awwww".
I wonder how is it like to be in love. I bet I haven't taste that sort of happiness before. I need to confess, I have never been in a serious relationship before. I look forward to one in future :) Hope so :)
Oh, &btw, I never think myself as a CINDERELLA okay. (just for your info). It's just that, that quote which I happened to find on the net, suits what I am trying to say.
Angel.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Time: 11:28 PM
I DECLARE RYAN REYNOLD, MY NEW IDOL!(:
Dear underagethinkingg,
Guess I have found one guy to swooooon. RYAN REYNOLD! He's damn handsome can. The moment I watched "The Proposal" I had a love at first sight with on him. Aww, how I wish I was Scarlette Johasson, who is happily married with Ryan Reynold.
See see, how can you resist of not idolising him!
The Proposal was great! Awesome romantic comedy movie. Just as what Joan had commented. It was freaking funny, almost laughing throughout the whole movie. Watched with Julien. Our 2nd movie together, by ourselves. Oh, and today was our so-called "blue dates". Wore blue, kind of match the day, Monday blues. However, sadly, forget to snap some pictures. It's okay there's lots more of monday.
Yay! Finally had lunch with Liern and Joan. Last week, was the first time throughout my ITP of not having lunch with Joan for a week. hah. Oh, &I think I will be getting a part time job soon. Ben n jerry! The hr replied my e-mail. Hopefully I'm hired. Can work to kill time, at the same time earn some buckeroos.
And you know what, I think I should start giving my stuffs name. They say you'll get attached to things, if you name them. Hmm. haha. That's what I heard from Monster Inc. I think tomorrow after work, I feel like pampering myself with a cup of hot drink from some cafe in vivo. Sit, relax and read my novel. Guess I shall do that tomorrow. Shall go sleep now :) Last but not least, how come recently, it seems hard to find nice wallpaper of singer/actor/actress. I find lots of icons, but not wallpaper. Ggrrr. &I should start reading fml.com again. It's been 2 days, since I last read it.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Time: 10:25 PM
Love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Looks like I haven't been updating regularly. Yeah. Was very tired recently. Could just fall asleep by just lying on bed. Maybe it's due to the cold weather, which is making the bed extra comfortable(?). Nice weather, but I think the thunder is totally redundant. Today early in the morning, while my mum was rushing to the kitchen to keep the clothes, she accidentally cuz the fish tank to fall, and the glass shattered into gazillions tiny pieces. Gosh, luckily, there wasn't any fishy inside. If not, imagine they dying of a terrible death.
In the noon, I went out with AFFF to vivo, get some stuffs. At the same time, surprise Julien at work once again. I think I'm not considering to work at toys r us. I do not want to have to work full day on either a saturday or sunday. And mop the whole huge damn shop. The crowd on weekends kind of scares me too. 9am to 11pm plus, is no joke man. Just asked my friend to help me check out for pastamania. Hopefully they need part timer! Anyway, spent money again, bought a dress from f21. Just can't resist the temptation of not buying it. Currently, still feel like buying a pair of shoes from River Island, and a black pump from topshop. I'm afraid I will turn into a shopoholic. Sighhhhhh. I spent to make myself feel happy.
Yesterday, went for my tightening. Blue colour this time round. Had lunch at shokudo @heeren. Food was delish and filling. Love the grill chicken omu rice. The egg is quite fluffy :) In the noon, went to marina barrage. Didn't fly kite, more to camwhoring and chatting and sheltering ourselves from the sweltering hot sun. Left at 5pm for amk to meet KJ for prawning. My first time prawning. At times makes me sleepy, as I looked down at the ripple forming on the water. I think I caught 2 prawns. Altogether we caught 18 prawns. Bbq-ed eat and ate it. Luckily we have KJ who is experienced and pro in prawning, &of cuz entertaining us. hahaha! The rest came later.
Friday went to vivo with Chris and Ah Toon to surprise Julien at work. Quite a simple outing. Surprise, had dinner, lepakz at rooftop garden. And thursday eating dinner with Serene and Ah Toon at Kampong Glam Cafe, this time round, didn't finish my fave roti john cheese. Oh bought my hurs bag and shades. I so so so love my hurs bag, shall give her a name, since she will be going thru' thick and thin with me. Hmmm, Chloe seems suitable. hah. Chloe it shall be!
Night to the not-so-friendly-world.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Time: 11:17 PM
Love is a serious mental disease.
Dear underagethinkingg
Tiring day at work. Seriously can't wait for attachment to end. Totally feel damn moodless to go to work, zero motivation. Can you imagine how tough is that? And I still need to bear for like 2 weeks plus. Why I feel moodless? Of cuz there's a reason behind it. I mean there's some problems in my tiny life. Like I'm stuck in between in a situation. If only I am able to pour out to my toiletbowl, and after pouring out, flush the toiletbowl, &all my troubles are *poof* gone. I seriously won't mind talking to a toilet bowl. hah. But kinda weird.
So anyway, I expected some stuffs which will happen today. Obviously got some tears in my eyes. But I'm cool after that. Feel abit fuck up at some point of time. I think karma, for closing the lift door without waiting for my neighbour. But I was rushing for time, and he still took his own sweet time walking to the lift, I did hint him. If I wasn't rushing I would wait. Anyway, I've learnt this phrase called the "a tit for tat".
Had dinner with Ah Toon Tan. He made me wait for like 45 mins! But as a friend, I understand, it takes a bit longer for him to walk than those normal human. Had dinner at clementi. I think it was a wrong choice to order that curry rice. Didn't taste as nice as I thought it would be. Should have ordered Pontian Wanton Mee!
You know I don't know why some ppl ain't contented with their lives, when they have all the essential "items" in their lives already. I don't see which part of you will get you upset or have trouble in. No, not saying that, I have all rights to be not contented. Cuz I know there are more people out there, having worser situation than me. I have been trying very hard to overcome this so called "recession" period of mine. Just that all these takes time.
Oh, do you like promise breakers? Cuz I totally dislike them. One must be nuts to be okay with them.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Time: 10:06 PM
I couldn't wait for success, so I went ahead without it.
Dear underagethinkingg,
Recently the weather was rather cooling and comfy. If only, I could sleep longer. But work always force me to wake up at 7am plus. Sigh. Less than 3 more weeks, and I'm finally done! But by then, hopefully, I get my toys r us part time job. I don't want to be a couch potato, rot at home doing nothing during the 1 month vacation. I used to agree with one of my friend saying "Why work so hard now, when you grow up you can slog like hell". Somehow now I disagree in what he had said. I think I would rather slog hard now, &maybe when I grow up, I will face lesser financial issue? Of cuz this will only work, if I save &spent wisely on my salary.
Anyway today was a bit of a terrible day for me, had to withstand headache since the moment I woke up. &the best part was I forget to bring panadol on my way out. Luckily, Liern had a box of panadol in her drawer. If not, I guess my brain will just explode like a bomb.
Went home after that, due to not feeling well. Then after dinner, I went to shop for groceries with my papa @ shop n save. Now I won't be scared that I will be freaking hungry like a pig. Instead, I'm worry that I'll be as fat as a pig!
Anyway, should sleep now. Night world!
More About Me
Hi I’m Angel. A “trying-to-be-optimistic” girl.
Totally hooked onto English Comedy Sitcoms and US Romance Movie.
But comedy and horror are okay for me too.
A student still and trying very hard to find motivation to study.
I love starbuck coffee. &eating pastamania chicken sausage makes me a happy girl!
Macaroni cheese is my fave! I love yellow, green is 2nd .
Plane rides &exploring new countries are the best!
I love hanging out with CC, cuz they totally rock my world!
I love my S’pore M.A.C too, people there are like family, it’s like my 2nd home.
Yoyo(my i-touch) keeps me from being bored/getting cranky.
I love my teddy bear, Hocus Pocus.
Watching firework with loved ones, are the best moment!
Spongebob, Chip&dale, green alien, stitch <33333
La bi xiao xin cracks me up!(:
Bad post.
There's some occassion when they made me laugh during my itp. hah. Oh ya, the bill amounted to 200plus. Woah.
